Too Weird To Live, Too Rare To Die.
Author | Student
“I write to discover what I know.”
- Flannery O'Connor
About The Author
I choose to look at the world with rose-colored glasses.
"Conceptual artists are mystics rather than rationalists. They leap to conclusions that logic cannot reach. Rational judgments repeat rational judgments. Illogical judgments lead to new experiences."
Navy brat who’s traveled the US, college student, published author - continuous writer. I love cats, roses, food, have such a wanderlust that I can’t wait to explore. Book enthusiast, art fanatic, video-game lover, and I dabble in photography.
“The Empire, your parents, the Resistance, the Sith, the Jedi…
let the past die. Kill it, if you have to. That’s the only way to become what you are meant to be." - Kylo Ren
Due to many things in my life thus far, I’ve been through a lot of dark times. But change is one of the few constants in life, and it’s been a lot of work, but I’ve pushed and fought and grown to be where I am today.
My strongest attribute is my will. When my rock bottom took away everything, it was my will that kept me fighting - hope and the idea that, in time, I can figure out how to make things better.
In a word, I am "resourceful". Honest, driven, confident, loyal, adaptable… I will always find a way and do what needs to be done. No matter how hard I try, I could never be a person who doesn’t care or hates the world. I have too much love in my heart and want to help as many people as I can.
To quote Carrie Fisher: “I cared very much, and I wanted apathetic indifference. I’m jammed full of my reaction to wherever I am and my need to convey it, to a degree that is unsettling.”
I will never write the great American novel, I will never be the best in my field. I will probably never win awards, or be taught about in school. But I am at peace with this, perhaps even happy about. Because I cannot give my all to writing - as much as I love it, because there are so many other things in this life of mine that deserve my heart and soul.
Writing fuels my soul - it sparks it like a match, but I have to let that match light other things instead of being consumed to ash. There are so many artists who gave their lives, their hearts, and souls to their craft, but I am perhaps too selfish, afraid, or human.... There are so many artists that embody their art so precisely, sacrificing everything else, that they become art themselves, and those are the people the world cannot live without.
"... once you say those words, you can't unsay them. A chapter has ended, and a new one's begun." - Happiest Season
The world has a funny way of changing you. From the weather to what you wear, every little thing changes your path. Thoughts and feelings seem like the most crucial thing at the time, but are they really that important to you and your life? Take the time to enjoy life; slow down and learn who you are…. Feelings from an outside perspective can be seen, understood and objectively analyzed, but only when you feel them for yourself can you truly understand them and all their irrationality. In the end, nothing’s really permanent. No matter what you’re going through, who you are, what you think, what’s happening around you… it can always change.
Sometimes on a warm day, a cool breeze will come along. It just happens. Or it doesn’t happen. There is no schedule for it, no specific reason, nothing you can do to cause it. It feels awfully nice when it does happen. You don’t deserve it, or not deserve it. You can’t earn it. All you can do is be out there doing whatever you are doing and enjoy it when it comes along. That is not to suggest you should be passive, not at all. Exactly the opposite. But you should allow life to happen. Things happen the way they need to, which may not be the way we want. Therefore, regrets, grudges, anger - anything negative is like drinking poison and expecting another to be hurt….
Try to take joy from the little things in life for they are unique and unrepeatable. And though the world and the people within can be cruel, laughter and smiling are very important.
“To live, to live will be an awfully big adventure.” - Peter Pan.